Think in English [我想想]

These days i've been thinking why the earth i can't speak an 100% fluent english,even 50% . i have learned thounsands of words and most of grammars.why? why is it so hard for me to express totally what i think?it's certainly pathetic that a man can't tell people what he wants to say.sounds like a stammer,huh?

My best friend in college, Danny, who speaks english like a native speaker once told me that i should take more opportunities to talk with others in english. i guessed he meant practice makes perfect.actually, i follow this rule in exams,but in english learning, i don't.

Danny also told me he can think in english. first time i heard it, i thought it was a joke. but he wasn't kidding.though i don't even know what he is thinking, i can feel he really can, through his words, his values,stuff like that. so it's amazing, isn't it?and i think that's the point why he can speak in a native way.Once you think in english,it will be as easily as you speak chinese, cuz you just say what you're thinking. however, before i can say something, i have a process of translating, from chinese to english.Gadamn translating! i hate it.everytime i tried to think in english, i failed.

Teachers always teach students to learn english by connecting with chinese,which forced us to translate all the time. In fact, both languages have their own systems which work in different ways,especially in mind. So i believe that splitting the connection is a better way and also, actually, much more difficult than translating.

Guess what,sometimes i think Danny he is a banana. i asked him how he can make it. he said he has no idea. maybe he was just Americanized,i guess and it might be a strange feeling that being torn between two ideals.but it's good. i wish i could feel it someday.